This will have to be quick because I’ve got a lot on the go today, and since I’m already on quite the impressive roll, I want to keep the momentum going!

I just had to share this with y’all because I think it’s a major big deal, and maybe some of you will nod and smile and pat me on the head, and maybe some of you will say something like “Well, d’uh!” That’s okay…there’s going to be at least one person out there who hears this and gets it and finds themselves changed as a result.

Ready?

Here it is:

When we give ourselves the things we need and want without reservation, without guilt, and without the bullshit negative self-talk that tells us we should be self-sacrificing, we find ourselves doing the things we have to do without resentment. We are full to the brim with what we need to fulfill our responsibilities with efficiency and even (gasp!) enjoyment.

The experiment lately has been to say yes to myself whenever possible. The results? My house has never been cleaner. My heart has never been more open. I have never been so capable of giving time, attention and nurturing. I have never enjoyed sex more. I have never had such booming, raucous orgasms. I have never felt so tenderhearted toward those who need me. I have never been clearer. Never.

Now, maybe I’m in a manic phase. No, I’m not bi-polar, but I do tend to cycle rapidly in and out of depression, so it’s possible that what I’m experiencing is the up swing out and into normal, balanced brain chemistry. It’s definitely possible, since Imbolc just passed, and that has historically been the time when the seasonal depression I experience every year begins to lift – but. There are some major differences that I’m finding striking. The lack of resentment is huge. The sense that I’m in my body, in the present moment instead of somewhere off in the past or future is *very* new.

So…

Maybe I’m on to something?

I’ll keep you posted.

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